April's Mood
March was one hell of a month, for one I finally made the decision to leave my job, the world is basically on lockdown and I even decided to try developing a new relationship.
After many months of trying to escape the inevitable, I finally let go of my “comfy” 9-5. For month’s I was holding onto to what I thought was a comfortable situation until it wasn’t comfy and the idea of staying was worse than my fear of leaving. God was showing me all types of signs that it was time to spread my wings and kept waiting for the right moment and realized there really is no such thing. Things just kept coming at me and making my experience more and more miserable and then I decided to just pull the trigger and put in my 2 weeks. My last day was Friday, March 13th, 2020 this day was emotional and quite somber but also necessary and refreshing. I had a whole plan of how I was going to handle life after this departure, but little did I know God had something greater in mind.
Three days into my new chapter LA was issued a stay at home order and non-essential businesses were to close until further notice due to COVID-19 aka Corona aka The Rona. This was a blessing in disguise, I knew I needed rest but was trying to fight it so hard. I’m so used to being on the go that being at home was driving me crazy and it had only been a couple of days. About 5 days into trying to continue to “work” I gave in and allowed myself to actually rest and realized this was all I needed. I was on the verge of depression and rest was literally the solution. I then began to journal and get into the word as a way to get closer to God because I know that he would provide all the answers I have been searching for.
The rest I indulged in eventually provided me the clarity I needed to start tackling projects again and begin to build my freelance business. March was a month of letting go, allowing myself to rest and reflect in order to reposition myself for this new chapter of mine. I found myself evaluating a lot, from apartment hunting to gathering home decor inspo and really focusing on how to build multiple streams of income, I chose to focus more so on the future than the present because this time is truly temporary.
Moving into April I am focusing on manifesting the life I truly want. I created a 2020 Mood board on Pinterest and filled it with images of home decor, positive affirmations, outfits, and so much more that relates to the life I truly want to live and the woman I want to be. I am being more conscious and intentional about what deposits I am making into myself on a daily basis as well as how I let the energy of others affect me and just really taking inventory of my mental health and the things I need to work on to better myself overall. What are you guys focusing on during this time? Is there anything that you need help with? Let’s discuss in the comments or shoot me an email!