November's Mood
The Mood For This Month is Transformation.
Being that my birthday is right at the beginning of the month in October, I decided to allow myself grace and not publish anything here on the blog and just enjoy my birthday to the fullest. If you follow me on the gram then you got to see all the festivities, I definitely started 27 in a grand way!
As the birthday excitement wore off, reality really started to settle in. I had been getting signs and messages that a major shift was happening soon, and although I was aware I had no idea what I would be in store. I am in a full-blown transformation season, and have been for sometime now but the culmination of it all is happening right now. It has finally set in that I am really thousands of miles away from what I know as home and all things familiar. Like I really just got up and left all that I know behind and am starting a new life. Wheeewwwww! I am feeling so many emotions all at once; fear, empowerment, independence, vulnerability, strength, and remorseful just to name a few. I honestly feel as though I have bitten off way more than I can chew.
To add some fuel to my fire I am doing a 3 week fast that is making me rid myself of all my toxic habits. So when I say transformation is the mood, I do not say that lightly. This month I will be diving deeper within and just refocusing my energy into my relationship with God. As many of you know I am very transparent about my love for God but not so much my relationship with him, while that is a very personal topic I have to be honest and say that that relationship is a very inconsistent one. So this month it is my mission to tap in with him and relinquish all of my controlling ways to allow him to use me and have His way in my life.
At this very moment I am in a much better place than I was when at the end of October and when November started. I was stressed, my self doubt and limiting beliefs were out of control and I was still trying to operate out of my own strength which is something I have been clearly told not to do. With the first leg of my fast complete I am feeling optimistic and have implemented my morning routine back into my daily flow to ensure that my days stay on track. I have been receiving signs and messages of good fortune coming my way but for some reason I am blocking my self from allowing all the goodness that God has in store for me. So a huge part of this transformation is working on removing those blocks and tapping into my purpose and soul mission which has become very apparent to me. I often get urges and or ideas and sometimes I don’t act on them but all the things that have been inspiring and speaking to me as of late have been things related to those very messages I have received.
I’m realizing I make things so much harder by trying to take the “easy” way out or cutting corners with myself when in reality consistency is key and staying my own course will keep me in alignment with the vision and life that God has already prepared for me. In this season, Transformation looks a lot like accountability for the role I play in the turmoil I am experiencing as well as surrendering and relinquishing control and any worry associated with the “How” and find rest and contentment in my very clear “Why”.